It is happening. I am becoming my mother. My siblings and I have ALWAYS given my mom a hard time about some of the absent minded things that she has done in the past... Things like putting the milk in the laundry room, forgetting to pick us up from school, things like that. It wasn't until about 4 years ago that I realized why she was so "out of it" sometimes. No, she wasn't on drugs, she was simply tired!! She raised (is still raising) 6 children who are now between the ages of 32 and 17.. All of those years of mindless actions were a result of her EXTREME exhaustion! A few weeks after I had Melissa I put the ice cream in the pantry and did not find it until the next day! Ray made me call my mother immediately to
apologize for teasing her for so many years. Since that first
incident, things have just gone "down hill" for my mind. I have had a lot of "mindless" moments. I have put the bills in the fridge, opened the DRYER to find the laundry detergent, forgotten my young women's bag for church, really, the list goes on and on. The final straw in helping me see that I am truly my mother came 2 days ago when I was trying to figure out how old my sister Jenny is. For a split second I HONESTLY forgot how old
I am! My mind immediately went back SEVERAL years to a conversation that I had with my mom. I asked her how old she was and she took the longest time answering. I asked her what she was doing and she said that I needed to give her a minute while she did some calculations because she couldn't remember how old she was! I remember thinking, Oh man, my mom has really lost it! She finally answered and guess what her answer was! 32. Yes, the same age I am now! It wasn't until this moment that I realized that I am as "far gone" as I thought my mother was so many years ago... It is funny, I don't FEEL crazy!
I love you mom! Thanks for your patience with us!